I'm Yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

Home

I've been thinking back to that trip a lot lately, remembering little moments that, at the time, just pass you by.

Walking around the island, noticing that our steps are always in sync, that our pace is identical.

The moment of "this is right"

Seeing her for the first time in months, walking into the airport, shaking all the way down the escalator, so unsure of what's behind the frosted doors.

The first hug, the last hug.

I would love to even just be able to play back those few days, and relive every moment. To sleep in a room a few thousand millimeters away instead of a few thousand kilometers. To just feel every moment again and again.

This is home
Now I'm finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching
For a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home
(This Is Home, Switchfoot)

I so desperately want this to work, and I want to be happy with every moment of it.

So I recently updated a part of my information box on Facebook. When you think about it, how significant can it be? It's only Facebook, right?

Well, maybe, but I choose to believe otherwise.

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To me, that's pretty much the only way that I can really publicly say that it's there. Obviously I don't feel the need to make every single person in the world know what's going on in my life, but I do want there to be some understanding, some semblance of order in my life.

What I'm trying to get at is this. Yes it's a long distance relationship. Yes it's hard. Yes she's my girlfriend. Yes I miss her more than anything.

But because we can't be side by side every moment of every day, what is there anchoring me to reality? How can I make it clear to people that I'm not just making this up, that it exists?

For me, I like having things in writing. I like it when it's stated totally clear, when there's no doubts anywhere, and when there's something to read and look at. By making that one change on Facebook, it's a tiny way for me to say, "yeah, this is real, that's the truth."

When I can look and see that, it just gives me an ever so brief moment of heart pounding joy