I guess I've said that I would, and it's not as if I'm not excited to, I just naturally question every decision I make now, because I'm so much more concerned about other people's opinions and feelings than my own. And that often leaves me in predicaments like these.
I've asked my parents, and they're supportive. I just need to find the money and time, and it'll happen. Problem is, I have hardly any of either.
What would happen once I'm there? Would it be awkward? Would I wish I had never come?
No.
I need to, because if I don't, I'll just get too comfortable with the Berlin Wall of internet, and never be able to fully know if there's any point to it.
A single message makes my day. To see words created by those hands fills me with a sense of joy, and I try to take time to simply focus on them and nothing else. It's a nice break to talk to someone who isn't prejudiced by my social circumstance or physical appearances. At the same time, it's a curse.
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And yet while I have all those thoughts, I am constantly nagged by thoughts of...
...no, I can't write that. I'll think it instead. Oh dreams, where art thou?
Monday, December 15, 2008
Should I go?
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Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know
Okay, a wise person once told me to follow my heart. I think the same applies here. You need to do something to make you happy, no one else, just you. You're always thinking of others and doing things for other people, do this for you!
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