Whywhywhywhywhywhy?

Oh my god.
I am completely and utterly screwed now.

I have been relying on my iPod to manage my utterly hectic calendar, and NOW LOOK AT ME.

It's all gone. You've seen what my calendar looks like. Hardly a day goes by that I don't have something begging for my time. That's why I meticulously write each and every thing down - so I don't forget anything.

And now I'm relying completely on faint memories of appointments I've agreed to make. Rehearsals, practises, events, birthdays....it's all gone!

I just want to cry, my life is just falling apart. It sounds melodramatic I'm sure, but I have always prided myself with being punctual and organized. And then THIS happens, and I'm left stranded without any idea of where to go next. What is it that I've committed to doing tomorrow? I hardly know anymore! GAH

Everything revolves around that one unit. I had instructed it to backup to Outlook in case something DID happen, but now I'm realizing that it never did. As far as I know, my contacts book is gone as well, meaning the meticulously compiled database of information is now lost, and I have to go hunting for everything all over again. All my settings are messed up, my wi-fi passwords gone, everything I had done to make it work just right for me is now thrown out, and I'm stuck waiting for it to transfer 2013 songs to the portable library. I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THE MUSIC!!!!!!!! It's my life we're talking about here!

Wahhhh....
I can't decide which would help more - crying or Advil...or maybe both...

Sorry, that probably seemed really stupid that I'm so upset about losing a calendar, but you have no idea how much of my life was in there...