What to say

Wow, I just....can't stop wanting to say thank you.

Today sucked. Probably one of the worst afternoons I've had in a really long time. A little argument escalated to an all out fight, and I just couldn't stand it anymore. I left for Nose Hill, not sure what was going to happen next.

I honestly can't tell you where I would be right now without you. It's because of you that I've met so many amazing people. And those people are what's keeping me going each day.

While I was on Nose Hill, I started writing a blog entry, bemoaning my life and how it was all falling apart. "Life is a multiple choice test; since when is death an answer?" I think of the 2 and a half hours I was walking, I was contemplating the pros and cons of life the entire time. And you know what? The biggest pro on my list was you. There is so little else left holding me together now, as much as I try to cover it up. I have fallen completely away from my family and beliefs, so that now all I have are a few good friends. It's pitiful how I get myself into this cycle of self-pity so often, but I know what it is that keeps me going now.

I'm going to keep doing the best that I can, it's really all I can do I guess. But thank you, you have always been there for me, and it's the greatest gift in the world.