Fine.

And I was just about to write a new one anyways. So here you go, a new post!

Really, I want to rant more than anything. Maybe not a long rant, but I'm just kind of bothered by band right now (alliteration!)

Today after school we picked up our band folders with most of the music we'll be playing this coming year, and more importantly, finding out what part we'll play (1st, 2nd, 3rd, etc) and who the section leader is.

So basically, I go in, and lo and behold, I get section leader.

BUT!!

Gah.

I'm second horn. Every minute I think about it more, I get bothered by it even more. Why is some grade 11 taking first? BUGS ME SO MUCH.

I commit to two groups; the school band, and my church orchestra.

>>Side rant: My annoying band teachers have been invited to the orchestra concerts MANY TIMES, and have yet to come. I think they underestimate the quality of the music.

Anyways, two groups. I do a lot of practicing.

And get this!

Our orchestra performs on a very regular basis - sometimes every other week! So I perform in front of about 3000 people on a weekend. Doesn't even bother me anymore, I hardly realize I'm on stage. The thing is, we sometimes get music as we're walking on stage. And we play it. For practices, we will sight-read a piece once, and it already sounds crazy amazing. For many performances, our total rehearsal time on a single piece is about half an hour. Then we get on stage, all eyes are on us, and we do an amazing job. Every time.

So here I am, getting my music, and everything has figgin' SECOND PART on it. I could scream right now! I'm actually feeling really insulted by it!

Is it range? Does crazy asian girl have better range than me? ie, can she hit a high, high C? After 2 months of not playing? Can she play for 4 continuous hours over a weekend? With BRACES???

I want to do my audition over again. Take back all the horn music please. Make Lindsey girl wait her turn!!! Make us do a cold read of some music. Let us see the piece 10 seconds before they expect us to play it. Test our endurance. Take into account the fact that I hadn't CUT MY LIPS BACK INTO SHAPE.

Honestly, with braces, the only way to play is to practice HARD for a few hours, pushing to hit every high note, until you have blood coming out your mouth. The entire inside of your mouth burns with pain, and you can hardly feel your lips. AND THEN you let it heal a bit, but KEEP PRACTICING. Then you build up callouses on your lips, so that within a few weeks, you can play just as well as a person without.

Really, I'm just totally angry at the way this turned out. If it's because of the braces, give me a pair of pliers, and we'll see what they have to say then.

Otherwise, maybe I might just, you know....quit band? I've got orchestra, who needs Eviloff?