This sucks :(

Every once in a while, you make a mistake that is bigger, fatter, more awful than the other ones you always make. It stands out, likely because it's not just you who's hurt, but other people as well. Then it just hurts, like a chunk of ice that's been surgically implanted into your heart by a butcher with a dull knife.

The thing is, mistakes are like writing with pen: it's done, you can't edit it, it's done, the damage has been made. You might be able to cover it up by scribbling, or using some white out, but the mistake is still there, you're just covering it up now.

I'm done apologizing for my post, it's done. I said things that need to stay private, and I know I've betrayed some trust. I wouldn't expect people to feel too happy about their lives being exhibitioned on my blog. For that reason I'm doing something I didn't want to do, and that is to delete the post. It's been read, and I'm thinking it doesn't need to be read anymore. If you want to read what it said, too bad, it's gone. I'm not bringing it back.

However, I am going to publicly apologize and make a public promise:
To the people who's trust I broke, privacy I opened, lives I shared, and secrets I talked about, it was wrong of me, I can understand why it's not so easy to talk to me the same way. I made some big assumptions (big no no), said harsh things (big no no), and shared parts of your lives that should have been kept behind the thin veil of cyberspace (big no no). Overall, I totally bombed post number 79. At the time it was about me being concerned for my friends. Now it's more trying to back pedal enough to minimize the damage. My most sincere, humble, honest, and deep apologies go out to you. If you're harbouring some deep anger at me, at least let me know you hate me so I can stop worrying. And there's no need to leave a comment clarifying your comments, it was my problem, you needn't apologize for it.

As for the promise, from right now, (in fact, from pretty much the beginning of time, with this as the exception), I will not EVER discuss personal life matters with anyone, publicly or privately. For example:
I will not send someone a copy, excerpt, or summary of a response of yours to someone who is not involved in the situation, and not without your permission.

This blog will contain only things that relate to me, my head, my heard, etc. I'm not going to talk about other people's lives, because they have their own blogs to do that in. So this is MY blog for a reason.

To the 3 people who have been hurt (and I know it hurt, it's happened to me), please talk to me, I want to make things right. I've seen the errors in my ways, and as the most a fallable human can do, I'm going to do my best to correct it. I have faith that my friends will understand where I'm coming from. Can't wait to talk to you three.

Graham


Oh, and all you who aren't involved, umm, yeah. Hi!